My only difficulty with meditation to date has been dealing with my own expectations and translating anything that doesn't meet that expectation as failure. I know myself well enough to know that's setting myself up to translate that failure into inaction and then the next thing I know, I haven't meditated for weeks. While meditating every day is a valid goal and something that I'm pretty close to doing, I've refused to make that the way I define my meditation and practice. I've instead committed myself to meditating and seeing how that feels. And? So far, so good...
Even though I don't blog every day (and believe me, I've treated blogging the same way I'm treating meditation), I meditate most days. Sometimes at home, sometimes at the church, sometimes while I'm out walking. Leaving myself some wiggle room generally means that I find time for meditation and self-care and freed of the tyranny of schedules, also means that my meditation time is usually when I'm most open and ready for it. I also find the mindfulness moments to be sticky enough to last longer which excites me to no end. I've got a bear of a schedule coming up and will need to be fully present in MANY moments with MANY people and am convinced that my fledgling mindfulness practises combined with my faith and the wonderful group of people I'm going to be with throughout much of the summer will be sustaining and uplifting and for that I am grateful.
So don't beat yourself up if you are unable to meditate on a daily basis or even any kind of schedule. That defeats the purpose and is as far from loving kindness (your own or others) as it is possible to get.
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